My battle with fear

Fear is an emotion that most of us associate with every now and then. Even the most successful people have to face their own fears everyday. However, there’s a difference between those achieving their dreams and those just building castles in the air in terms of how either of them relate with fear.

You could say that I belong to the latter and slowly transitioning to the former. My relationship with fear can best be described as intimate. Its always close and ready to defend me from perceived danger. Even when the danger is unreal. For instance, public speaking presents no real danger..however fear could make it feel like a terrorist attack!

My greatest, which is also the root of of all of my Fears is people’s opinion of me. What will they think? What will they say? This is the fear that I have fed my subconscious mind with for long enough. It has therefore grown and nourished to a point where it is now starving me, my dreams and goals.

Well..not any more! The fact that I am writing this is enough testimony of my winning battle against fear. I know fear is not all bad. It only gets bad when you let it get in the way of your dreams and goals. It gets even worse when you let yourself believe that you are what it has made you into. And worst when you let it define you.

There is nothing more scary and satisfying than facing your own fears. I recall how I felt before,during and after my project presentation. Before it was my turn to stand in front of the intimidating panel of supervisors and my classmates, my heart hammering against my chest, my palms sweaty and the sickening feeling in my stomach. When my chance came, I don’t know where the confidence came from but damn! It felt good. Like I could do anything I set my mind to do.

My dream is to be a version of myself that is fearless. In this version, I am not devoid of fear, I am, despite of it. I follow my dreams despite what other people’s opinions may be. I voice my beliefs, ideas and opinions no matter how damn they may seem to others. I cannot wait to be this me. Can you?