I am the girl in highschool who almost always knew the answer but never raised my hand.

Who frequently had an opinion but was too shy to raise it. Who had good ideas but dismissed them on the account of others opinions or fear of humiliation. Taking risks has never been my strongest quality.

Shortly after graduating in 2019, an opportunity to be a trainer at a TVET institution arose.

Probably many in my position would have grabbed it. Not me. So I said teaching was not within my career path. That I was looking for a job that was related to what I had studied in University.

Now, I can see excuses wrapped all around my thoughts and fear of stepping out of my comfort zone all over it.

Once an opportunity goes it hardly comes calling again. So I hustled that year and even started this blog, which is actually the highlight of 2020. I probably wouldn’t have started it if I took the trainer job.

Everything happens for a reason. That’s what I now tell my self since the trainer opportunity came calling once more.

And I grabbed it, ferociously. There was no moment of doubt or hesitation.

Looking back, I see many lost opportunities that I can attribute to the narratives that I have told myself over and over again.

“I am not good in public speaking. It’s better to keep my opinions to my self. I hate being in the limelight or center of attention. I cannot play chess, it’s so complicated,” just to mention a few.

whatever you repeatedly say about yourself becomes your truth and reality

Since I started working as a trainer, most of those false narratives have been proved misguided and nothing but excuses to keep me in my comfort zone.

I am a middle level chess player, speaking in public is basically my job, which means being the center of attention.

It feels liberating not to be held captive by my own negative thoughts and beliefs anymore.

I now want things I was terrified of. I want to be heard. I want the attention. I want the spotlight. And this feels like growth😋

Till next time🤗